A break

This weekend was so nice!! Saturday we chilled and my friend em and her mom came to visit. So nice and I got a beautiful gift from Sam and em.sooo sweet. Sunday we rocked church. Jen dud an amazing job and then the fam went to lunch. It's weird to see your face places
Then becca and Kyle came to visit. I got the spec scoop and we watched funny you tube videos talk about laughing. Mom christa and Michele went to trader joes so pot pie was dinner!!!! Pie is on it's way from very nice people.
Tomorrow begins week two with christa and Kyle before radiation so mom can work!!
Sam comes home wed so Friday I'll most likely have ean and Sam for chemo.
I see pollock on Thursday before radiation. So it will be nice to hear what she says!!!

One down

Well so much for being on time. I tend to pride myself on being onetime to everything!! Not anymore!
We were late to chemo day one but it was so not our fault!! Chemo took a grand total of 15 min but there was a DVD player for when treatment get long. We just quoted them. Napoleon and groundshog day. If you have never seen that bill murry movie you now have plans feb 2 you are also going to need an iced angel food cake and a big mouth!! haha
I sonehow get the best nurses on the planet and then somehow indirectly know their life! It's awesome! Rebeka?? May just have to be my friday nurse!! What a lady!! She gave me brownie points because because I own a lime green ku shirt.. Haha even if I did feel a little dirty In it. Sorry ku.....
My biggest fear was my silly port but leave it to the pros and it's no problem. Guess water isn't over rated after alllllll.
I chose pizza for dinner and then ate like half the small pizza alone!! We can thank my steroid for that!!! It was like a cow!
Now that day one was Such a breeze I say bring it on Friday!!!

Day one

Oh my worries were exactly worries. No fun laying on my stomach but not bad like I thought. I missed the face hole so once my mask was on my face quickly became a problem. I laid there for what seemed like forever as they positioned me. Did you know half your face can fall asleep??? I will be a pro by next week.
I Start chemotherapy today and that's a Friday funday thing I get to be an afternoon lady. Wanted to make sure my walker is the only one?!??!!!!!! Haha. I have no idea what to expect for today because everyday is new. Once I do it once I won't have to fear it any more!
My incredible mom brought me some very yummy frozen yogurt last night! And the owner wants to do something for me.. So I'm sure I'll get more.. Score!!!! I also got a non hospital hot dog! It was amazing!!!! My dad!!!!!!! That guy cab grill even when it's 104!

People are amazing. In our world it's so easy to forget people are so nice!!!  They just are. They threw a benefit for me and the line was out the door people waited like 30 Mins for noodles!!!! Or just donated. Incredible!! A few of my icu nurses even came. I told  them I'd be back to dance!!!!
I was beyond happy I got to go and eat, my family too we saw so many faces we have missed in our life and got to tell our funny stories..., I was cute and little once. And I am ornery. Maybe that's why people tell me to be good. Thy knew little me. Haha
Then we had family tine and christa and Jeff counted. Mom had some port tine. Dad and Michele and I opened gifts and cards. It was so good. We we're silly. Go figure!!!  Then very late the 4 began their treck hone!
Today (thursday) dr, Kim has given me the okay to start radiation. At 2.. So thats fun. Today and tomorrow I do something radiation again... I think.... I listened really well. I just go. I'm sure I i will have great stories for the weekend...
Everyday is an improvement... Walking. Moving. All that.
One of our GOOD family friends does PT so she came and we worked...out and she left her workout ball so mom and I can do stuff. I haven't done the crawl again...yet. just some butt circles and standing.
Right now I get to retrain my brain so working out is like standing up (which I can do alone now!!!!!) and standing in one foot!! It's great!
Today so gets great status!! I got to see so many amazing and wonderful people.. And I got to  hang out with my favorite people!! I don't feel so out of touch like I did before!! Finally!! Yay Wednesday!!!!!!

Natalie

Something else

So I guess I skipped an important thing.
A couple weeks before everything (tubing and camp) I had a dream. Yeah. A dream. And in my dream. In my dream they informed me of My tumor. I then had to tell my mom and then I had to tell 5 people even though ideally didn't want to. So I did. Very angrily. Against my will. 
 was the weirdest dream ever. I beat someone up. I yelled. A lot. It was very odd. And then i woke up. Idk. Weird
Sorry if I seemed angry. I don't mean it. And most of the time I don't really know what to say. 
Today, (Sunday July 24th) I'm feeling great. Working on a cleanse. Not recommended. It's a no walker day working on balance is good stuff. Lots of laughs. Very good. They say it's  some of the best meds. 

A book they say

a book, and I just typed a whole thing out and then pressed the wrong button, so if this gets angry. This is round 2, whoops. They say that they can blogging about how well they think I am doing but only I really know. And I, the only one that can feel it. So they want a book about how I"feel" since Im so good at thT. You throw words like indiaan rug burn out and people get mad..I guess
I don't fel like have much to say I just tweet it all.that should Be a book, my crazy tweets. no one read it
I guess I should say that if you hate me in a week that's okay. I can get  annoying. It happens....
I will also will say I'm a little happy it's me. I would be freaking out if it was someone else. Seems very unfair and it is but ehhhhh. It happens. I made a choice so let's talk again when I really hate this and REALLy get mean and demanding... 
Some how I got cooler laying in ICU what?????????? Possible? Why???? Who do you people think I am?? I must of lost that somewhere. was there a memo?????
I feel like I should say sorry I am soooooooooo inconvenient for everyone. I mostly wish this would go away for my family. My sisters and I have never been so close but I'm watching this tear my parents apart. I hate it. I just sit and lay and I want to help. Somehow I just don't know how. So for now I just do what they say. It's easier and better for everyone.
I am stealing peoles lives. Worst part, I don't understand why they do it. What did I do for this status???

A month ago I was crazy me. Who I like, a lot but some peole don't that's okay
I was the most healthy crazy kid ever. Now look at me. I'm THAT kid now, arent I??? I sure don't feel sick. Helpless yes. Sick, no.
I refuse to let this define me. I told someone my "cancer" is a purple ball. I have placed it in a hoop, and unless I have to I'm nit touching it. It will NOT define me. I'm kicking it's tail. You can't get rid of me. Sorry. Lol. 
My mom says I talk more but I think just have the ears now. Lol didn't before.
Also They say I'm funnier but I have time to think of the jokes. Now. What else am i doing?? Well writing a book. I guess....