The Book...

Hey Everyone, Since all my medical things are behind me, I've decided to continue to update you all on everything Natalie on this site. Seems more....Normal? Thats the only word I can think of. This site started out as a place to post things for my "book." Well, Im not sure about the book, but I have been actively been putting a pen to paper to make what someday will either be edited and published(BIG dream) or I will type it up and post it on here for all of you lovely people!! I have to get this important message to all of you before I begin to bore you with my everyday boring college life that is about to begin. At my "celebration" a weeks ago, my sister, Christa and Jeff gave me a book of all the Caringbridge posts and guestbook entires from the past year. I have been slowly going though each entire and last night as I was reading I realized something and I feel as if its something I need to share with all of you. There are post after posts of you kind people telling me that I am your hero and inspiration, and maybe that is true, but you, dear lovely people, You are my Heros. YOU are why I can be here today and type this out for all of you. Attitude is MORE than half the battle and the other half was prayer and faith. You all have instilled a joy in me that makes me feel like the rock star you all think that I am. With my strong faith, it only has gotten stronger over the last year with the help of all of you. Im NEVER going to be able to explain it in the right words, and give enough thanks and love back to feel as if I have given you all what you have given me. I am an incredibly blessed child of God. I know that I have something AMAZING to do with my life, and I have an INCREDIBLE story to tell others. Yes, over the year I had enough bad days to last a life time but it was your kind words that helped me see the light at the end of a very dark tunnel. I didn't need to pretend to have a "sunny" or "happy" outlook about things because you all have believed in me from the beginning. Look at the stock I come from. We are born and raised Fighters. Today, Mom and I watched "Letters to God." Its about a little boy who is 8 years old and lost his battle with brain cancer. His unbelievable faith in God is what kept him as an earthly angel for so long. When I was first diagniosed it was so easy for me to be upset with God and to want to just scream at him with questions like "WHY?" and "YOU CHOSE ME? ARE YOU NUTS" and "WHAT DID I DO WRONG"So, this one scene from "Letters to God" with the little boy, his best friend Sam, and her grandfather really stuck out to me: Her grandfather says to Tyler that he was hand picked by God to be one warriors. Wow, Right? Never thought of it that way. What a fantastic way to look at the not so fun situation. Not only have I been hand picked by God to one of his warriors, I now get to go an share my story with others about my GREAT God who loves me enough to keep me around. Even if it is just to bore all of you with my blog updates :) Love and Hugs -Natalie